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   I may be quiet,

   I may be shy,

   I may be sweet,

   I may wear skirts and dresses and curtsey for fun,

   But I am not small.

   I can't play sports,

   I don't like cutting my hair,

   I love getting jewelry as presents,

   I cry at even the slightest emotional movie scene,

   But I am not small.

   I am afraid of large dogs,

   I am sensitive,

   I am considerate as possible,

   And yes, I do all of my work without arguing,

   But I am not small.

   I know that none of you will listen,

   When I finally decide to let my heart flow,

   I know that none of you will take me seriously,

   When I finally speak my mind,

   But I am not small.

   Just wait.
This is dedicated to my friend J.J who passed away yesterday, January 3rd, 2014. It was all due to the irresponsibility of a drunk driver (underage at that). She was 17, in her last year of high school. She'd already been accepted to college and she couldn't wait to go.

She had big goals for her future, even though a lot of people didn't take her seriously. She loved dresses and jewelry and perfume and pretty much everything typically 'girly.' But she had such an open heart and such a broad mind and she always knew what to say. Plus she was funny as all hell. Part of her whole personality was that she loved to make the stupidest damn puns just to make people roll their eyes, but still chuckle. I don't really know how to convey her dreams and goals in a way that's true to her. I did my best, I hope it lives up to the amazing person she was.

I'm really going to miss her.
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MarineSister6 Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2014  Hobbyist
I feel like crying now. This is a first in a long time.
oscami Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
I'm crying on the inside right now. I don't let my tears drop. I stay as strong as possible. I'm extremely sorry for your loss. This is the kind of stuff you see, but you don't want to see it. So you make it a piece of your imagination. To you, it never happened. To you, it isn't a danger. To you, you are to scared to understand, to feel the pain in this horrible world. People ignore these things. I hate that. It matters. I don't care if you're the king of the world. It matters. I don't care if you are the element of fire. IT MATTERS. this world is going black. But we can save it. You are helping us see this. Thank you. I am truly sorry for your loss. These things don't have to happen. If only us humans would see that...
QuietDragons Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much for those words. Thank you - and everyone who commented - for understanding how difficult it was. I admit, I was enlightened on how cruel and unfair drunk driving seems after J.J. passed away. It's something I'll never forget, and I'll never stop fighting to stop it from happening to someone else. I can't imagine what it would be like to lose a family member. It's bad enough losing a friend.
oscami Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
I haven't lost a friend in that way, but I did switch schools recently, and moved. now I am miles away from my friends, and miss them dearly. people at my new school think i'm a freak because i'm from the city, and I have no way of communicating with the friend I usually go to for comfort. so, I can't relate exactly, but I do know loss rather well. i know that it's extremely painful, and your poem almost describes Izzy, the friend i seek comfort from, rather well. i actually cried.
Irishfury97 Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2014
I am very sorry for the loss of your friend. The death of someone you care about is nothing less than pure emotional pain. May she rest in peace. All the same, this poem is supurb. Very deep:)
DeniseCroy Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I can't believe something like this happened. I mean you hear it all the time on TV and it seems like nothing and then you realise it's true. 

I'm so sorry. There is nothing more I can say. I am truly, truly, sorry. 

As for the poem, it's simple and beautiful and unfortunately... unbearably sad. 

And I agree with your friend. Girly = weak is pure bullsh*t and I'm happy to see I'm not the only one thinking that. 
AmuletSpade13 Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I am crying ;3;. Oh my god this is amazing. The quality of your work is great and the meaning behind it is wonderful. You are a great friend of J.J. And may you feel better in time. Just don't give up on yourself because she wouldn't allow that. ^.^
terraluna5 Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist

This is truly sad indeed. Yet another reason why I'm glad that I don't drink or smoke or abuse my body with harmful substances. Drinking should be illegal, for what is drinking but to alleviate the stress and pain you suffer? All it is is to stuff your sadness down with inebriation and hazy ignorance. That's what drinking does you.


Well done. I'll fav this work of literature in your friend's honor, and yours. Well done.


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